We were all intentionally placed together by the Father in accordance to His perfect divine will, which is never the result of random occurrence absent a sophisticated and intricate design. We could not have each consciously chosen the other one with the intention of being the exact catalysts to the healing and spiritual growth that is absolutely necessary for us to whole heartedly accept the free gift of Christ’s love that is sufficient for all sin that entered the DNA of man thus corrupting the absolute perfection of His exquisite architecture and formula for our existence on Earth. It was perfect in the beginning when He created us so that we could sit back and enjoy His labor and the absolute perfection that only He could design as the omniscient and omnipotent Holy One.
Humans have been afforded the choice of free will and are responsible only for the spiritual ramifications of each decision made as each of us are presented with a moment in time and the subsequent resistance or complete acceptance of the energy. There is no identical simple formula or universal mechanism in operation for all human beings as they receive and process sensory experiences in their life. Some moments will inspire the revelation of profound truth and healing for someone that could shift their entire perception of reality while others will produce a tear from a place deep within one’s heart without the need for any cognitive functioning or deeper processing in the body. It is just the natural beauty of the energetic flow that exists between people who are channeling the Holy Spirit of God, which is undeniable truth that exists for all of His creation buried beneath layers of trauma and eventually being the foundation for all humans to relate effortlessly because it is the core of the soul connecting us all to one another and more importantly to the heart of GOD.
I am a broken human and full of emotions, memories, judgments of myself and others, and that is how I relate to others and feel the beauty in all. I relate to the brokenness of my fellow human, for it is in this place that we can find deep comfort because healing and restoration in the name of God will fill up the cracks and bring us supernaturally to a place of rebirth as the Holy Spirit of peace, comfort, love, compassion, grace and ultimate forgiveness enters our fractured and fragmented broken spirit and we can receive life anew as the Creator intended. So many of us reject the gift of the Spirit of Christ and subconsciously and consciously feel that it is too good to be true and so totally repugnant to everything that we have ever been told about who we are. Sin is the result of a defect of the divine perfection and the natural consequence of humans defying the will of God the Father, which is not the same for each one of us. He thoughtfully crafted each one of us with creative and intricate sacred concepts, knowing best for us and understanding how His children experience His love and manifest His spirit in very different ways. Love is the ultimate objective and it sure does not happen overnight. That would be quite boring and stagnant, which is not the way in which the Holy Spirit of God grows and becomes more perfect and pure with each divine assignment that He thoughtfully and intentionally blueprinted for us, considering all of the laws of His Kingdom working together to sustain perfection without any moment being even slightly out of place.
I seem to be the source of much emotional charge for most everyone who I come into contact with. That is good. That means you are feeling the exact emotion that you must feel in order for growth to take place, shifting of the spirit in one way or another as there is a union of so many energies that meet at a single moment and produce a change in the former order. My consistent prayer has always been for my pain to be used for the healing of others and to ultimately exalt and praise God the Father, the master choreographer of all that is and ever shall be. As it turns out, the ultimate blood sacrifice of the blood of Jesus Christ, the only Son of God was sufficient for all sin thus rendering any other human sacrifices as superfluous and unnecessary. I have realized that I am not glorifying God to engage in masochism and senseless suffering devoid of any personal joy and that is not the best way to serve God at all! Silly me. The will of the Father is for us all to experience the totality of human emotions so that we can truly and fully understand one another and have a heart that is in tune with Jesus Christ so that we can have genuine connection and fellowship with Him and all of the other members of the Body of Christ.
I do not wish to intellectually debate, judge or otherwise play the role of God in your lives or the lives of my fellow brother and sister. I do know that my heart was desiring and willing divine perfection and a final defeat of any satanic imperfections in the form of thought, emotion or any other whimsical bout of nonsense or brilliance, depending on how it is perceived. I I am truly sorry for any words that I spoke that caused pain that were not truthful, and trafficked gossip, sorrow, and insanity. I am a fool at times. I repent of this.
Perhaps I was wrong for thinking that I could serve God’s will from such a place of self-hate and condemnation, but I do believe that all things are possible with God and that prayers coming from a place of pain and humility are heard and answered. I do not think the Father wants me to die for the prospect of saving or redeeming others. But I do not know anything other than it is my wish and prayer for my life and all experiences that I have to be used for the exaltation of His glorious name and not for the Satanic suffering.
I am your friend, a human being, flawed and imperfect at that. Please do not see me as any more or less. I come in peace and love and leave the same. After such an exchange of emotional energy and words, I am not sure how this could really serve anyone further in the spirit of love, grace and truth since it is clear that you have such immense disdain for me based on your initial reactions and presumptions that are not from a place of depth or careful consideration. You have both made up your minds and have conviction of my intentions, actions, words, and attack me with such ravage absolute truths that I cannot even offer anything that you will entertain. It’s just mean. You are not friends. You are my enemy and have chosen to now paint me in a false and slanderous way that taints my character and corrupts the very core of my nature. My actions mean nothing.
“Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.” (Ephesians 6:11-12)