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Not my time to die

December 9, 2017 by Megan Lyons Leave a Comment

Someone once told me that TRUST is more important THAN LOVE, she told me LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH. At the time I wasn’t trustworthy, but I LOVED. My heart was divided into many HEARTS OF VARIOUS SIZES. In this state of A BROKEN HEART, I started to break the pieces down until I had HEART DUST left, nothing meant anything anymore. When my heart first broke, I started to use substances to blind myself from facing myself. Nothing worked but numbing substances came as close and was center of my hearts broken galaxy. 3rd TIME I was DEAD and brought back to life, I woke on the hospital bed, blood pressure 40/14, my right leg was paralyzed, I was DEAF, woman walking around the bed, baby with her, everything was slow motion, DR was writing on the cardboard “DO YOU DO HEROINE”. I nodded yes so devoid of any emotion, after all my heart was dust at this point. Something within me at that moment decided that I can’t take it any more, I’M READY TO GO, I’M BROKEN, I’M HEARTLESS AND THE WORLD IS BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME. I closed my eyes and something grabbed my attention violently, hard to describe this, it’s as if the very air that surrounds me just grabbed my insides. It said ” YOU INSOLENT FUCK, YOU THINK IT’S ON YOU TO SAY WHEN IT’S YOUR TIME TO GO”. In that instance my Heart was made whole again. I wasn’t fortunate, NO that’s to easy, I wasn’t LUCKY either, that’s also a way out. A way out of of RESPONSIBILITY. She was wrong ABOUT Love though, LOVE IS ABOVE ALL ELSE, NOT ONLY IS IT ENOUGH IT IS THE ONLY THING IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD THAT JUST IS. UNCHANGING, INFINITE, THE ONLY THING THAT WILL NEVER LEAVE YOUR SIDE. Now I LOVE WHOLEHEARTEDLY but my closest don’t TRUST ME. MY HEART will never be broken again, yet only a whole heart gets the full brunt OF SADNESS, most people pity, a whole heart weeps and aches and feels Sadness for what it is. In this brief existence, in this speck of dust that is my LIFE, I HAVE LOVE and when the shell breaks, TO ABSOLUTE LOVE I SHALL RETURN. WITHOUT TRUST, one is only entertaining THE IDEA OF LOVE.

–Danjel Dugandzic

I like to dance through the souls

December 9, 2017 by Megan Lyons Leave a Comment

If I am not flying through the soul of an energy being, I am having an anti- human experience, a morbid transaction of energy that is vapid and cold, heavy and dark. It is only through the enmeshment on a soul level that human interaction can truly channel God and honor the truth of His Spirit. The Holy Spirit is a spirit of rawness. It is not to be confused with perfection or even a system of morality. It is true to itself, free, unencumbered, unrestricted, pure in form in the sense that it is congruent and obedient to the soul’s purpose. It is only from the soul that passion can be born and the Holy Spirit can dwell. In the absence of human emotion, a soul will die. The divine nature of human beings comes from the expression of emotions. Emotions inspire our creativity, they connect us to other beings, irrespective of age, race, social status. They are a direct conduit to the heart and there is no other greater connection that two souls can experience. The concept of a soul mate is based in the idea that two human beings will meet and cross paths and feel an inextricable bond that is measured by the vibration of the deepest core of the human soul. When people write about sociopaths masking their energy and faking it, I don’t believe this is the product of a malicious conscious design to energetically deceive those who they come into contact with. When I have felt an intense connection with a sociopath, the feeling is so powerful, intoxicating, titillating, and full of real emotions. In fact, there is not an absence of any of the human emotions when a highly sensitive and a sociopath meet energetically. Both are feeling fear, excitement, lust, apprehension, silliness, childlike innocence, depth, anger, sadness, confusion, and intense sensory stimulation that affects the entire body from head to toe. It may feel like some sort of voodoo curse or spell that is consuming your being and becomes a drug. This is because the fusion of energies is producing a hormonal response of happiness, elation, excitement, passion, creativity, love, and all other intense emotional states. Even a bad emotional state like anger or fear serves an important purpose, because it is giving life to the body and wakening up every part of someone’s physicality, thus giving it life or shifting it from a place of energetic stagnation. Prolonged pain from trauma will numb the body and a disassociation occurs between the brain, body, spirit. Trauma that is not processed and released from the body will in every case kill the human being as it will manifest itself as a physical ailment and eventually a disease, all stemming from the point of original trauma. It is a blockage or vortex of energy that is dense, dark matter, heavy and suffocating on every aspect of the energy that forms around it.

Trauma energy can be the energy that human life is conceived from. This energy is of a lower vibrational frequency and resonates with the frequency of fear, resistance, hesitation, uncertainty, doubt, restriction, lack, a misunderstanding of the divine nature of reality. This type of energy is not of a divine nature and not unconditional love celestial matter that our Creator made us from. Creation, of anything in the universe commands a vibration of unconditional love. Creation can be small, grandiose, personal, universal, it can be beautiful or grotesque to the senses, but it will always incite an emotional response in its operation. It is only when human beings are in a vibration of unconditional love that they can create. This is a frequency of awareness, and an active engagement of one’s faculties for the sole purpose of creating something. Maybe it is the creation of chaos and destruction. All serves a divine purpose that is anointed by God to maintain his Kingdom of intelligence, consciousness and everlasting life.

There is something exquisitely beautiful and divine about the growth that happens between the time of a tragedy and the time to transcend to a deeper understanding, and infallible bond of energy that is the infinite. It is nothing short of the supernatural and magnanimous power of unconditional love, the purest and most holy love from the Lord, to be able to love deeply, fully, passionately and with fondness and a genuine sincerity, despite any harm and pain inflicted in our own souls from this connection. The essence of unconditional love is this very phenomenon. It is the effortless art of loving someone no matter what, forgiving them for the flaws in their thinking and behavioral patterns that were not fueling their inner spirit of truth and purity, divinity and clarity. It is by the union of two human beings in the physical realm who can share in the expression of God’s perfect love that we experience true acts of miraculous levels of empathy, understanding, forgiveness and acceptance of the inherent fallen nature of man. Perfect human behavior without struggle, a sense of actions and reactions, and subsequent consequences would produce idleness and stagnation. It would be tantamount to spiritual death. The more colossal the mistake and the greater the disconnect from the Source will only result in a bond that can’t ever be broken, forgotten or abated in the future.

Is self love narcissistic?

December 8, 2017 by Megan Lyons Leave a Comment

The spiritual journey is one that is full of endless experiences and perceptions that change the way humans interact with the Universe. The notion of duality consciousness is the deluded perception of warfare between the carnal, ego-driven, fear based frequencies that disrupt the natural flow of the moment. Over time, and spiritual maturity is acquired, the fear frequencies are transmuted into the higher frequencies of love, clarity, acceptance, and forgiveness, that flow directly from GOD. These inspire the higher states of awareness, stimulate the use of the whole brain, the integration of the brain and body (heart and mind) and the notion of infinite connection between all people and all things to GOD>

When someone is distracted or they lack concentrated focus or awareness and they are not centered or grounded, they are easily susceptible to sensory disturbance which will cause bipolar tendencies or multiple personality characteristics. This stems from a lack of a solid nexus to GOD at the core. There are too many conflicting energies and stimuli, thoughts and emotions all being processed at once-the brain and nervous system goes haywire or short circuits in essence. This is a mind, body, and spirit that is simply NOT PRESENT or balanced in the moment, constantly resisting the true peaceful nature that God intended man to reside in. We must be mindful of every word that comes out of our mouth and understand the spiritual consequences of every decision that we make. The more knowledge we acquire, the greater our responsibility is to obey the law of the Creator.

To love the Creator is to love all of his creations, including ourselves. To love another and to help another is the same as loving the self. One cannot exist without the other and the greatest obstacle to absolute freedom, unconditional love, is when one cannot forgive oneself or another. The vibrational frequency is the same and results from the same misunderstanding of the nature of reality and the grace of God.

Sometimes the appeal for a narcissist and the love-bombing, attention giving, lavish praising and adoration stems from a severe hole in the spirit and a fracture in the soul that developed from a sense of rejection from our parents or a parent who was simply NOT PRESENT in the moment. Sometimes that can be the most severe form of abuse!

The relationship between God and his child will be the template for all other relationships. The art of creation is the perfect way for a traumatized person to re-connect on a CONSCIOUS level with the Creator by eliminating the distractions of the material world, slowing down or restricting the monkey mind and the compulsive thoughts of the ego and fear based world of illusions, and using the God given faculties of creativity in which the heart is the source of the energy thus taking the body out of fight or flight mode.

There is a natural state of oneness and harmony between brain, body, Source/God, and a conscious awareness of the inextricable bond and untenable connection between all things to one another. Everything is always connected and the thought or belief that they are not create resistance to the truth and a state of disharmony and delusion. The problem of one is the problem of all and only GOD can remedy a problem that is beyond the limited perspective, experience and arisen for one, meaning the realization that all need to come together and consciously fully accept the infallible truth that everyone and everything is connected and all are created by GOD with each element part of the design that only can come from beauty, harmony and freedom of movement.

To exist in perfect harmony and experience universal oneness and everlasting life is to love God with all of your mind, body and spirit. There is nothing more to aspire to. It is the beginning, the end, the alpha, the omega, all there is and ever shall be world without end.

Who is God?

October 9, 2017 by Megan Lyons Leave a Comment

Who is God? Does He really love me as much as the Bible says? Does He still see me even though I am buried in my own shame and self pity hardly breathing life into my own existence? Does He know how much I hurt and that I struggle to muster up the strength for a will to continue life?

God, I love you for creating this beautiful masterpiece of love, lies, illusions, truths, deceptions, clarity, chaos and infinite perfection. You are not able to be bound by words, concepts or even illustrations that are larger than life and painted with the most vibrant colors on the largest canvasses. You are beyond the comprehension and consciousness of the human mind. You are the only thing that is real, that never fails, never leaves and never abandons us, even when we abandon you and forsake you for lunacy.