The experience of emotional pain that I feel to the core of my soul from neglect, abandonment and the perception that there is nobody to soothe, comfort or otherwise relieve my sadness is one that never truly dissipates fully from the wreckage and battlefield of the soul. The remnants of this piercing and chilling sensation that run through the veins of my physical body and create goosebumps on the skin will never fully die.
Not only will this emotional state remain buried in the dark corners of the soul, but there will be further wounding of this pain on a consistent basis for a soul who embraces the sensation.
This profoundly melancholy feeling is an inevitable backdrop of the human experience and arguably creates the traumatic foundation for which all further trauma and victimization are replicated from. It is the kind of haunting feeling that will be easily recognizable for the infinite dwelling of the soul. But it is this same place that also dissolves into the most vibrant colors of peace, love and an inner sanctuary of serenity inside of the soul.
In my place of deep pain, I revert back to my inner wounded child who is naked and curled up in a ball in an attempt to be hidden or erased from the world. This feeling is powerfully palpable and transcends the chakra systems in the body and screams outward into the universe. If the vibration of the thought and the accompanying emotional experience is potent enough, the universe at large will be affected by such a synergy. This vibrational frequency emitted by a powerful transmission can be felt in different ways all over the Earth and when it is picked up on the other side of the Universe at the exact moment and a union is made with the energies, we call this a synchronicity. This is a beautiful bond of energies that meet at the core of the human soul and expand to the infinite levels of universal and collective consciousness. That is the essence of life, existence and purpose.
My soul purpose is to connect with others on the deep, profound, painful level that is buried for most or outside of the realm of consciousness. My yearning for this type of connection is based on the notion that eventually, at one point or another in time, the bonding of the deep soul energy will be the catalyst to something so beautiful as it has transcended from its original state and now exists in a form of the infinite and higher state of consciousness. That moment in time and the original moment in time and all others to follow are DIVINELY INFINITE AND CONNECTED. THAT IS THE ESSENCE AND MIRACULOUS BEAUTY OF THE HUMAN EXPERIENCE. THE FUSION OF SOULS ON A LEVEL OF SUCH PROFOUND EMOTIONAL ENERGY PRODUCES THE INFINITE AND IS THE EMBODIMENT OF WHAT WE CALL GOD. THIS IS THE ENERGY THAT WILL FOREVER RULE AND GOVERN THIS UNIVERSE. IT IS THE SOUNDING BOARD FOR ALL EMISSIONS FROM THE HEART. WHEN WE LOOK INTO OUR HEARTS SO DEEPLY AND HAVE NOTHING BUT PAIN BUT ALSO LOVE TO SEND AND GIVE BACK, THAT TRULY IS THE ESSENCE OF LIFE. LIFE IS MADE UP OF EXPERIENCES OF LOVE, HAPPINESS, SADNESS, PAIN, TRAGEDY, CHAOS, GRIEF, HUMOR, DEATH, REBIRTH, ECSTASY, AND FORGIVENESS. In the end and after the fusion of the totalities of such intense energy have become one, we are only left with love. It is nothing, but ONE LOVE.
I always found myself tortured by the idea of the quest for eternal romantic love. But that my dear souls, is an illusion. I wanted someone to be there, in my subjective moment of emotional pain or harmony to be able to experience that same feeling with me and somehow diminish my pain because I did not think that I could handle it. How much could one soul truly take? But the amazing thing is that I am here to tell the story and provide proof that not only can the human soul take all of that energy, but it becomes that energy and vibrates at a higher state of consciousness and energetic frequency as a result of such moments of profound depth. The process of transformation alone raises the vibration of the human existence and the relationship of the soul at any given moment with the rest of the universe.
Part of the beauty of the universe, my dear, is that what is so seemingly complex can amount to nothing while also being the synergy of so many energies or moments of time all in one. The light and the dark, the devil and the angel, the joy and the pain, the beginning and the end, all is inside of us all of the time and all things which are life in this universe infinitely and eternally yet never in the same form and all representing and serving a uniquely divine purpose for the greater purpose of achieving God’s kingdom.
God’s kingdom dear ones is inside of the Soul. You are God when you can vibrate on a frequency that is close to Him and when you can reach into the depths of your heart and soul and ponder what is best for the greater good of the universe at a particular moment with the intensity of the underlying emotion being unconditional love. There is no other frequency that is quite like unconditional love. It is pure, free, unencumbered with motive or agenda and made in the essence and image of God. It is a complete wholeness and oneness and universal infinite connection with all that ever was, is and ever shall be in this life, the past lives and all future lives to come….LOVE.
LOVE IS THE FREQUENCY WHICH MAKES ALL OF THE UNIVERSE POSSIBLE. THERE MUST BE A PROFOUND PAIN ON A MASS SCALE TO SHIFT A GLOBAL AWAKENING. THERE MUST BE A CRY OF A BABY AND A BIRD CHIRPING TO SOOTHE THE THOUGHTS OF AN ANXIOUS WOMAN WHO CAN ONLY RESONATE IN HER SOUL’S EXPERIENCE WITH THE PAIN AND SUFFERING OF SUCH A BEAUTIFULLY BROKEN WORLD. YOU SEE ALL OF THESE MOMENTS AND EXPERIENCES AND ENERGIES ARE ALL NECESSARY FOR THE EVOLUTION OF THE UNIVERSE AND THE TRANSFORMATION OF HUMAN BEINGS INTO ONE ELEMENT OR ANOTHER.
SOME HUMANS ARE THRILLED BY THE CONCEPT OF SLOWLY MELTING INTO MACHINES AND HIGH POWERED PERFECT ROBOTS WITHOUT ANY CAPABILITY TO FEEL THE DEEP AND PENETRATING EMOTIONS OF THE UNIVERSE. FEELING SUCH EMOTIONS INVOLVE BEING ONE AND ATTUNED WITH HOW THE ENERGY RESONATES AND VIBRATES WITH ALL OF THE CELLS IN THE BODY AND IT REQUIRES THIS ESSENCE TO BE FULLY FELT AND RELEASED IN SOME WAY BACK INTO THE UNIVERSE. IF THE EMOTIONS ARE NEVER EMBRACED, PROCESSED OR FELT, THEY SIMPLY LIVE INSIDE OF THE BODY IN THE CELLS AND THERE IS REALLY NO CHANGE OR TRANSFORMATION THAT TAKES PLACE. THERE IS NO PROCESS OF THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT IN THIS INSTANCE BECAUSE THE ENERGY IS NOT CHANGING IN FORM OR ELEVATING INTO ANYTHING. THERE IS NO CONSCIOUS AWARENESS OF THE EXPERIENCES THAT PENETRATE THE HUMAN SOUL AND THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN SOULS AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT TO ALLOW FOR ANY EXPANSION OF SUCH ENERGY. THIS IS THE SOURCE OF DEATH OR ETERNAL BLISS FOR THAT ENERGY. GOD DEMANDS THAT THE INTENTION BE PURE LOVE AND THAT THE VIBRATION BE IN TUNE WITH PURE, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND IF BOTH ARE PRESENT AT THAT TIME, THEN GOD IS SHIELDING AND PROTECTING THAT DIVINE ENERGY AND NOTHING CAN EVER HURT IT OR DESTROY IT. IT IS TOO BEAUTIFUL, PERFECT, POWERFULLY PROTECTIVE AND GENUINE IN NATURE TO EVER BE ANYTHING ELSE. AND NOTHING ELSE EXISTS THAT IS MORE DIVINE. GOD KNOWS WHEN A SOUL IS VIBRATING IN THIS PLACE AND CAN HEAR AND FEEL AND RESPOND TO THE OUTCRY OF THE ENERGY AND WILL RESPOND ACCORDINGLY TO THE REQUEST OF THE SOUL AND PROVIDE INSTANTANEOUSLY THAT WHICH IS NEEDED TO KEEP THE UNIVERSE IN A PERFECTLY IMPERFECT STATE OF SYNCHRONICITY.
GOD IS ALWAYS IN PERFECTLY ATTUNED ALIGNMENT WITH UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. THAT IS THE MOST POTENT ENERGY AND IS MADE UP OF ALL OTHER LOWER VIBRATION ENERGIES. IT COULD NOT HAVE GOTTEN TO THE PLACE OF GOD UNTIL IT ABSORBED AND WAS ENMESHED WITH THE LOWER LEVEL VIBRATIONAL FREQUENCIES IN THE UNIVERSE. AND ONCE IT WAS ENMESHED AND SURVIVED SUCH A COMPELLING AND CATACLYSMIC EMOTIONAL EARTHQUAKE AND EVOLVED INTO A HIGHER STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS, GOD IS TUNED INTO THIS FREQUENCY AND IS CELEBRATING IN THIS ETERNAL STATE OF HEIGHTENED AWARENESS AND LOVE.
THE SOUL’S JOURNEY IS INEVITABLE AND TRANSFORMATION TRULY REQUIRES THAT ALL HUMAN EMOTION IS FELT COMPLETELY AND FULLY, DARK AND LIGHT, AND ALL THINGS IN BETWEEN, IN A PERFECTLY ENMESHED STATE OF HARMONY. WE ARE ALL HERE TOGETHER AT ALL TIMES, VIBRATING AND IT CAN EITHER BE DESTRUCTIVE AND DISASTROUS OR GLORIOUS AND DIVINE, DEPENDING ON THE RELATIONSHIP WITH THE DIVINE ENERGY IN THAT MOMENT. IF IT IS PURE AND GOOD AND LOVE AND LIGHT, IT WILL RESONATE IN THAT FREQUENCY INFINITELY. THIS IS THE ESSENCE OF GOD AND THE COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS THAT COMMANDS THAT THE DEEPEST LEVELS OF PAIN BE SURRENDERED, ABSORBED, FULLY EXPERIENCED, AND THEN RELEASED BACK IN THE NAME OF GOD. GOD ONLY RESPONDS WHEN THE SOUL’S INTENTION IS PURE, LOVING AND KIND, COMPASSIONATE AND TRULY DESIRING THE EVOLUTION AND TRANSFORMATION OF THE SOUL INTO UNITY CONSCIOUSNESS. THIS ALSO REQUIRES A CONNECTION WITH THE UNIVERSE IN ALL OF ITS FORMS, IN ALL STATES OF THE EVOLUTIONARY PROCESS, AND RESONATING IN THAT VIBRATION IN PEACE AND NOT IN RESISTANCE OF THE PROCESS. THE PROCESS CANNOT BE DIMINISHED AND THE HUMAN SOUL CANNOT BE ROBBED OF ANY EXPERIENCE FOR THE SAKE OF ANOTHER, EVEN WHEN THE INTENTION IS PURE AND GOOD AND LOVING. THAT IS STILL NOT THE ESSENCE AND VIBRATION OF UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. THAT STATE OF BEING IS ONLY NURTURED AND FED WHEN IT IS TRUE AND PURE AND NOT A MERE PROJECTION OF FALSITY AND TRICKERY.
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE KNOWS NO OTHER VIBRATION THAN ITSELF. NOTHING CAN QUITE INTIMATE SUCH A PURE AND POWERFUL STATE OF BEING. IT CAN ONLY BE MET WITH A FORCE THAT IS EQUAL AND OPPOSITE OF THAT. THAT MY DEAR IS THE NATURAL AND UNIVERSAL PROCESS OF EVOLUTION AT ITS HIGHEST STATE OF BEING AND PURE ESSENCE OF LOVE AND LIGHT. This is the Divine Intervention. The synchronicity of all synchronicities. The infinite moment which catalyzes all energies that are in the same state of vibration, which can only come from a FEELING and the act of embracing our pain and coming to terms with its counterpart, love. From chaos comes clarity and darkness inevitably welcomes the light of day and that process will never change. Do not resist or fight out the darkness. It is only in the darkness, in the moments of solitude and fear that we can be one with ourselves and truly realize by the experience that it birthed the evolution and growth of self. This is self love. The moments of darkness and fear in which there is an experience of seeking the love from only within oneself and being able to find the light and resonate with the light. In the end, after this process has truly occurred within oneself, and the feelings of love are nurtured and expand in the sanctuary of the soul, the pain that was there at the beginning of the metamorphis is no longer feeling so daunting. It is the very essence of deep emotional pain that transcends into the most beautiful, free, floating butterfly that will forever guide the universe. But only if one is tuned in and FEELING this will the butterfly be noticed and embraced for this true essence of beauty. It is the symbol of the divine universe in the most free state of ABUNDANCE and harmony. Our perceptions of individual experiences in any given moment depend on the internal emotions and the energetic fusion of such energy. When they are in tune with the Divine being and with the harmony of universal unconditional love, the pain has dissolved in time and a new moment of happiness or adventure can be experienced fully. When there are blockages of unreleased emotional traumas and former traumas from childhood restricting the flow of new Life Force energy, the energy of God, the human experience is in a state of death. There is no vibration with anything other than the same energy that existed since conception and birth without any transformative power at play. At that is how it will remain until there is a revolution of the spirit to find the strength within itself to become a warrior.
And this is the Warrior’s lullaby. We will all experience this moment, in perfect time with the Divine Intention and at no time sooner or later. This experience cannot ever be compelled or induced by anything outside of itself. Such a façade of a vibration cannot sustain itself and the true essence will be revealed. It requires a soul evolution and a fusion of energies and feelings and the process of sending the energy back out into the universe in a positive form for a higher level of consciousness to be experienced. That is the one and only requirement of God. It can be done in many ways and forms and there are no other rules or mandates other than it must be in tune with the vibration of God. All this requires is that the soul FEELS what it FEELS in a moment in time and that it taps into God’s consciousness and ignores all else. If it can accomplish this, it cannot fail. The soul cannot resonate with God and ever be guided in the wrong direction. And who is God you ask? The sanctuary within yourself. So the moments of enmeshed pain and love, solitude and unity consciousness, all existing as one, perfectly imperfect and without any resistance. It is just the feeling by itself and no resistance to be anything more. Because there is nothing better, greater and more perfect. That is the essence of GOD.
It is kind of incredible, isn’t it? The synchronicity of the universe is simply amazing. Its intricacy is mind-blowing and once you experience this moment made in the pure essence of GOD, you realize that it is the highest vibration that man can achieve and you can melt into your slumber in a peaceful state of SURRENDER and acceptance. This feeling can only be felt once all other lower vibrations have been embraced and released back into the universe with love.
Feelings are resisted by most and thus, there is a disconnect in this universe. It is only when we truly feel in the purest of forms that we connect. Such an essence of being cannot be masked, choreographed or intimated. But it transcends all words, and exists forever in the sanctity of the soul in the name of GOD.